Frank Waugh

(untitled song)

2004-06-30T09:42:21Z

everybody's got a place where they can go to be alone
everyone loves to be touched in their arousinous zone
come with me into my mind take a sip of xtc
come with me into my heart and baby you will see
take a step into her head breath truth and life not lies
echos in a silent life in the shadows she will die
I saw her lying there lifeless as could be
fried within her head
live on xtc
hoping for her visions
smiling with delight
glassy eyed her heart stopped
horrified to my fright
I pumped upon her chest
breathed deep into her soul
dreaming of her memories
pain I can't control
I saved her from her horror
I saved her from her sin
I saved her this time only
but what happens when it happens again
I can't be there for her always
though her life and through her lies
I can't be there for her always
to catch her tears as she cries
the truth is in her head somewhere
chained up and dragged away
the truth is in her head somewhere
and it is inslaved

song - falling down

2004-06-30T09:32:04Z

I'm falling, falling down
Falling and there is no ground
I'm falling, falling down
Falling and there is no ground
There's no ground to catch me as I fall
Feel like my back's against the wall

You though that I loved you
with all the games you play
I kicked you out, turned your ass away
You said you loved me
I am asking how
you have to face shit alone
Who's the fool bitch now

My job sucks
with bullshit there
call out sick
just don't care
those bitches tried to opress the white man
cause I have green hair

I'm trailer trash
my trailers trash
my gay friend todd
gets fucked up the ass
I don't understand life this way
I packed up my trash and moved away

We work alone
all week long
so we can get drunk on the weekends
get drunk on the weekends
and fuck some goth bitch we don't know
and the next week find some other ho

had a dream last night
filled with shock horror and fright
walked into work with a gun
laughed at them all as they run
the said I'm fucked guess it's true
I killed them all, and shot me too

Falling falling down
feel like I'm falling there is no ground
falling falling down
no ground to catch me when I fall
feel like my backs against the wall.

will you be there to catch me
catch me when I fall
will you be there to help me
help me though it all

She made a big mistake,
a mistake she can not see
she mad a big mistake
by fucken leaving me.

you fucken suck you cunt bitch
you owe me money too
you fucken suck you cunt bitch
and we're fucken though

(untitled)

2004-06-30T09:28:41Z

Come home come home
You silly little girl
Don’t get your panties
In a curl
I love you a lot you just don’t know
You tried to leave me, away you go
Why you would do this to me
I just can’t see
Why you would do this to yourself
It’s simply bad for you health

Perhaps you’re not as silly
And I don’t understand
You said you didn’t leave me
For some other man
If you love me as you say you do
And you know that love is true
Then just come back
Before I have a heart attack
With out you I am really lost
Too bad I’m no Robert Frost

If you really loved me
You would come home
And I would not miss you
Or be home alone
Are you on your way
So we can spend each day
Together forever is all I want
My heart is all tied up in a knot
You know that I really love you
Just come back if you love me too

Not forever

2004-06-30T09:28:06Z

Writing will not tell how much
I’m missing you more each day
Wishing you were here with me
And now you’re so far away
I wish you would find yourself
And know the truth that’s in your heart
Then we can be together
And never grow apart
I love you
Weather you believe it to be true
I love you
And even now I am trying to prove it to you.
You won’t give me a second chance
To be much more than friends
You won’t give me an opportunity to start over
We need to forget our past and begin again
Sometimes people make mistakes
And often you will find
They can correct those bad mistakes
It just takes a little time
If communication is open
And lines of love are true
If our love is truly pure
There’s nothing we can’t do
All I am asking for
Is another start
Just come back to me
And mend my broken heart

The bueaty of stupidity

2004-06-30T09:25:55Z

My ex is a wreck and everyone knows
She tries to follow me everywhere I go
She comes by my house at all hours of the night
But I wont even look at her, what an ugly sight.
She's stooping so low as to view my call logs.
Poor girls stuck on me, and big as a hog.
She's just like her mama, not satisifed with just one man.
She stole my old drivers lisence for some evil plan.
She made the decistion to ruin her own life.
One day I will marry her sister, make her my wife.
My ex is eat up, there's nothing she can do.
I am enjoying my life and happy too.
But happiness is something she'll never know.
No matter how many people she does or how far she goes.
She's a user and a druggy, and that's all she does.
She can't love or care or dream like the rest of us.
But something she find out all on her own.
By using everyone she's going to end up alone.
She pushes everyone away till there's no one left.
And her stupid plans like identity theft.
Wont work, cause she's just hurting herself.
She can hatch schemes and plot and plan.
But no matter what she does.
She'll never get back this poor sap of a man.

Christopher

2004-06-30T09:19:46Z

It's hard for any mortal to imagine but there we were in heaven, all knowing all seeing, and to want for

nothing. I am David an angel and like most of us I have never been alive on earth as a human. I have done a

great many things to help out around that small planet of earth, and let me tell you it's not the only one with

life on it, though they think they are the only ones of God creations. But that is another story this story is

about The Angel Christopher.

Christopher was a good angel though he had a very child like mind; he was very young if there is

such a thing as time here. Christopher would dream and fantasize about being a little boy, about running

through the fields and smelling the flowers. About falling in love, and having a normal life as a human.

This is actually a strange thing for an angel to dream about. Actually we don't sleep or dream at all. And

sense we all know, we can hear each others thoughts. And believe me Chris' mind was in the clouds

literally. I guess he could not help it being young and in experienced, and it gets kind of boring never

having needs and never wanting for anything. Some of us can be very content, however Chris was very

different.

One day God got very mad a Christopher because well for the most part God is just like that. You

would have to know God to understand. He doesn't really fit the description of any father I have ever

known in earth terms. God is ominous, God is cruel, and God would smite me if he heard me saying that.

God however can be very loving and caring and nurturing at the same time. But don't cross him, he will

send you strait to hell, and with no supper.

I am sorry; I am a prankster by nature. No one in heaven ever takes me seriously. I run around

heaven talking about the freesbeeterians, and none of the other angels think it's funny. And I got kicked out

of Bingo night all together. Heaven is a funny place really there's a lot to laugh at. And I would say that is

God's most favorite thing of all to laugh. I would say the best way to describe God in terms of a man is kind

of like Santa Claus, he is giving, he is generous, he is big and he likes to laugh. Of course he can be very

serious and coarse at the same time. But I would say his love of laughter is why he has kept me around as

long as he has because I have gotten into a lot of trouble. Sometimes even doing things and helping people

that don't deserve it.

When god had discovered that Chris was watching to closely the humans and wanted, no longed,

no dreamed of being one of them. God made a mistake, if there is such a thing as making a mistake for

God. By punishing me for some other thing I did, to watch over him. God is also like a big elephant you do

something ions ago, and he never forgets.

Anyway on to Christopher's story cause this is really about him. You will have to think of

Christopher in the terms of Winnie the Pooh, a child who likes to play with imaginary friends. Christopher

would be here and there and everywhere in heaven thinking and dreaming of being on earth, driving a car,

eating steaks and drinking wine. And sometimes and this is where the trouble all began, Christopher though

about smiting God for never having the chance to live as a real person. And truthfully that is what all of us

wish for and dream about, being a person just one time, we just are not allowed to admit it.

(untitled)

2004-06-30T09:06:04Z

I want to give you my phone number
I would like an opertunity to get to know you
a chance to see if we can be blissfully happy
if we can have a moment
if for one second we can be two people
and everything else just kind of fades
like a dream
where everything pales in comparasion
and if we try and it doesn't work
at least I know I didn't pass up the oportunity

Murder is not new to me...

2004-06-30T07:59:31Z

Would you ever kill someone? Of corse most people would say no. But the question is not something that should be taken so lightly. I killed someone. I had no choice and given the circumstances you would have done the same in my place. When I was 16 my first day of school was a harsh one. I rode to school on the bus which was something that I dreaded but that is not where my story begins. My story begins in fourth period. On the bus a boy flashed a newly acquired knife to one of his friends. If I had seen the knife perhaps I would have backed down and the whole situation would not have turned out the way that it did. Will his not so innocent blood spilled on my hands. Forth period came and on the first day of school we had a substitute teacher. We were a belligerent bunch of kids throwing papers and shooting rubber bands. One gang-banger of a boy was trying not to be involved in our immaturity. Of corse when a rogue wad of paper hit him in the face he became very involved and sense I threw the paper it was me who would catch the brunt of his hostility for society. He went to the chalkboard ever so quietly like a cat ready to pounce, and after he had filled an eraser with chalk he threw it at the back of my head. I was not pleased. As the other students instigated a fight I knew that I could not back down win or loose I would not look like a coward so I did the only right thing and stood up for myself. He must have felt weaker without all his other gang members to protect him and torment me, because he pulled out a knife. I don't remember much after that just bits and pieces really. He sliced my arm, and stabbed me in the stomach. I remember jumping over a desk and beating him with a book, and taking the knife out of his limp hand. I remember the feeling of the knife crackling though his chest as I stabbed strait for his heart. And I remember the pleasure it gave me as I did. This was not a matter of self defense, oh no but to hear everyone else tell it I was the hero. And I got away with it, and I am not proud of myself. He lived a tragic life and died a horrible death at my hands. And I have to ask myself would you have done the same in my place? Knowing that you would is the only think that keeps me sane. Because we all have a bit of evil in us. It's not remembering the events up to that point that haunt me. And the feeling of power I had over another persons life that scares me. It's over now and I can't take it back. So I must go on and bear the burden of knowing that right or wrong. I did what had to be done, and doing so allowed me to gain respect. Because the school I went to was as much like a prison as any school can be, and my punishment was a pat on the back for bravery. And I was pressured not to feel guilt.

Empty Shell

2004-06-30T07:55:12Z

Alive but barely so
Is there any meaning?
To this lifeless void
My existence is pointless
Perhaps once it meant something
Something to me
Something to everyone else
But now I am merely a dot in existence
Existent only in the memories
Of those who care to remember me
And of those I spend my agonizing days with
If I were to turn and walk away
I would be forgotten
Loved I am not
For the heart of mine is broken
Unjustly so
All that is left of my soul quivers
Sad cold and lonely
Another possesses the one I once loved
For better or worse
And I am but an empty shell

(untitled)

2004-06-30T07:50:56Z

Your as sweet as an angel
And dressed like the devil
gazing at those white panties
under your skirt
love so sick it hurts
and your the only cure
you just want to be friends
my thoughts are unpure
I hope you can be happy with him
because you can never love me
the way you love him

(untitled)

2004-06-30T07:49:58Z

Beginning a relationship all over again is really hard to do.
Especially if you had someone you really loved and had to say good-bye to.
Starting all over can be a rough transition to accept.
And many times it’s a lot more difficult to take the next step.
It makes it easier to put closure to something if you know it wasn’t your fault.
If you did everything you could to keep the relationship together.
Then it’s easier to accept that relationship won’t be your last.
Often you need a lot of healing time, time where you’re alone.
Or even someone to talk to about all your problems over the phone.
Sometimes it helps if you find someone new, or just someone who will listen to you.
But when you find a new person you can really trust, that’s truly rare.
That person may put butterflies in your stomach, or add that special flare.
Often times you don’t realize how important that is to you.
And they may not know how much you care.
But only if they knew, if that person could see though our eyes.
They would know it’s more than just a crush or puppy love we just can’t hide.
Someone one that I have seen makes me weak in the knees.
She makes me feel that way, in my fantasies and dreams.
Surely I can’t express to her, because I don’t know her all that well.
Maybe we can get to know each other and be friends
And then my love will be so obvious she could tell.
Perhaps it is premature to call it love at first sight.
How can I believe in such a thing?
When I don’t believe in ghost or things that go bump in the night.
I do know that I have feelings, some I can’t express.
I have a pitter-patter of the heart, and a breathless feeling in my chest.
Feelings I have not had for anyone in a very long while.
Feelings she may not share, even
If we were the only two trapped on a deserted isle.
I will never ever know unless I try, and ask.
Then if I am lucky, and it is meant to be.
We will have a wonderful loving relationship that will truly last.

(unfinished song)

2004-06-30T07:49:17Z

Your boyfriend was a jerk
Don't listen to my advise
Furthest thing from perfrect
Cheated and ruined your life

You want to be free
Not to be held by me
You want to be free
Not to be held by me

Love we could not express
to be much more than friends
Moved much to fast
Then came to an end

You want to be free
Not to be held by me
You want to be free
Not to be held by me

Someone new fell in your lap
Does everything that matters
Nothing can hold you back
Till your dreams fucken shatter

You want to be free
Not to be held by me
You want to be free
Not to be held by me

(songs)

2004-06-30T07:46:27Z

Keeping Secrets from you (is all I ever do)
You want to be free (not to be held by me)
You love just causes pain (not something I’ll explain)
Will you be my one nightstand?

Keeping secrets from you
Is all I ever do
Don’t even know why
Why we have to lie
Honesty is not a thing
That we can ever share
Holding you close and
Running fingers though your hair
Whispers in your ear
Never telling you I love you
Strong emotions, Bodies in need
But never more than friends

Keeping secrets from you
Is all I ever do
You love just causes pain
Not something I’ll explain

Will you be my one nightstand?
Can I take you by the hand?
Lying naked next to me
Close, as we will ever be

You want to be free
Not to be held by me
You want to be free
You don’t want to be held by me

You love just causes pain
Not something I’ll explain
Yours truly, not to me
Why does this have to be?
A big dilemma in my heart
You have no idea what you want
Make me hot with desire
Only you can quench the fire

You want to be free
Not to be held by me
You want to be free
You don’t want to be held by me

Will you be my one nightstand?
Can I take you by the hand?
Lying naked next to me
Close, as we will ever be

she loved her lies more than me

2004-06-30T07:45:05Z

she loved her lies more than me
she lost all touch with reality
she told me off on the phone today
glassy eyed and heartless her mind was far away
I can't stand to see her hurting inside
but what can I do
her life is a blank expression telling me
"I never loved you"
I have been hurting deep inside
but I am not going to cry
I thought there could have been a future
that she could have been my wife
but she's just like her mother
from now on, I will stay away
so I don't have to watch
as she distroys her life

Life is a rodeo

2004-06-30T07:44:00Z

Life is a rodeo
and I like the view from the fense
rodeo riders are those out going flirty types of guys
who try to tame the wild horses who are like women who don't want to be controlled
but some days I am the clown
I get in the path of the bull
only to get laughed at
while someone else gets the glory for the ride
Corse I have developed a new theory
some days I am a jar of Vegimite
I may look like chocolate, or a darkened peanut butter
but when you dip your chip in and get to much
you will be shocked and horrified how bitter I really am

Hold me

2004-06-30T07:42:58Z

take away all the sorrow
take away all the pain
hold me until I fall into a deep sleep
life is so long
life is so lonely
and often times unfair
it's good to be here with you
be holding you
be so near to someone that truly cares
gaze into your deep eyes
you can feel what I feel
we have the same fantasies
we have the same dreams
expressions of love beaming from you
bringing meaning to my life
something that is missing
a piece needing to be filled
a loving feeling that can only be shared with you
together
we can understand what it is to be as one

My brick phone

2004-06-30T07:42:26Z

My brick phone is used as a tool
You won’t see one at the local high school
It's used at work, my brick phone
I can't play games or download ring tones
It looks like the radios, we used in 'Nam
Not a Christmas gift for your mom
No graphics, voice mail, or caller id
I use it at work, that's fine by me
I get charged roaming everywhere too
And sometimes my call will not go though
I can't send email or find out if Robby Gordon won
I get billed long distance, that's not fun
Sometimes I am scared to use phone, to keep in touch.
I'm very afraid, I'll get charged too much.
Friendly customer service, would be a plus
I can't express myself, but what's the fuss
I wish someone told me, I could pay much less
If only I had known about Cingular Wireless

Moon

2004-06-30T07:41:02Z

Why are you there taunting me?
Why do you stare at me so
Moon you dare to laugh at me, to taunt me
You are but a sign of romance, a simple thing
With all your beaming glory, you are but a refection of the sun
Yet as an imperfect reflection of the sun
You mean so much to so many
Some days you are there and some you are not
Some days you are pearing out only slightly visible
You watch as star struck lovers steal a kiss
And you laugh, as you will always be
Yet love will not
In all your imprefections your the cause
Often times, your the inspiration
You pull at the tide, and you shine brightly
You moon can be romantic, in all your glory
And as the months end and you fade into darkness
Like a wishful relationship torn to sreads
Your still there moon
Hiding, laughing, taunting
Your like an evil woodland fairy
You are the cause and the cure
For this sickness known as love
And one day moon
I swear by you
You will have no pull on me
My love will be but love
A life of all it's own
You may be there watching over me
But you will be forgotten

Love

2004-06-30T07:40:19Z

A desire for that person to be
The fist person you talk to in the morning
And the last one you talk to in the evening
They are on your mind all the time
You want nothing more than their happiness
And will sacrifice your own
Often trying only to please them
Sometimes a reward in itself
However when that person
Doesn’t feel the same
Then your dreams are crushed
It takes two people
It’s not always give and take
Pain comes out along the way
Sorrow and unhappiness
If you’re the only one
It truly hurts sometimes
And often we don’t realize our mistakes
But that is part of the cycle
Then endless search for the one
And if there is only one
Out of the countless millions
Then that’s why each opportunity
On the way to that one
Can go horribly wrong
The odd thing is
Even when you realize it’s to late
You still never stop feeling for them
Because it is never a selfish thing
Not self-gratification
But making ourselves weak
Vulnerable to being hurt
We think never again
But we can’t help ourselves
We have no control
There are many different types
Ultimate friendship
That’s also a sacrifice
But we don’t see the burden
And with any relationship
You have to be friends first
And always
Or it just won’t work

It doesn't mean a thing

2004-06-30T07:37:03Z

I looked into your eyes
felt butter flies in the stomach
your not the only one
it doesn't mean a thing

you flirted all the time
said hi as you passed by
it might mean something but
it doesn't mean a thing

I asked you out to dinner
you took me home to mom
parent's never like me
it doesn't mean a thing

then on our second date
I got you out that dress
I told you were special
it doesn't mean a thing

friends of mine are girls
there's nothing going on
you say your not the jelous type
it doesn't mean a thing

I have bills to pay
you never helped me out
you ran off with some old fuck
it doesn't mean a thing

I slept with your friend
she tasted great
shes not the only one
it doesn't mean a thing

you came crawling back
begging me for more
you said it's true love
it doesn't mean a thing

your lazier than me
shun your responcibliites
ran away again
it doesn't mean a thing

you fucken robbed me blind
you stole all my good cd's
you said you'd be back for more
it doesn't mean a thing

now I am fucken famous
singing stupid shit
fuck anyone I want
but it doesn't mean a thing

I am so fucken stupid
Singing this damn song
When I realize she did nothing wrong
She cooked for me and cleaned after me
I promised her forever
It doesn’t mean a thing

Now she is happy
Happier than me.
I know somewhere in her heart there will always be a place for me

Not forever

2004-06-30T07:30:12Z

Writing will not tell how much
I'm missing you more each day
wishing you were here with me
and now you're so far away
I wish you would find yourself
and know the truth that's inside your heart
then we can be together
and never grow apart
I love you
Weather you believe it to be true
I love you
and even now I'm trying to prove it to you
You wont give me a second chance
to be much more than friends
you wont give me the opertunity
to start over
we need to forget our past and begin again
sometimes people make mistakes
and often you will find
they can correct those bad mistakes
it just takes a little time
if communication is open
and lines of love are true
if your love is truly pure
there's nothing we can't do
all I'm asking for
is another start
just come back to me
and mend my broken heart

Then I will be gone

2004-06-30T07:24:27Z

I wish you were standing here with me
sometimes you don't even know I exist
You know the love I hvae for you
you act like you don't even care
It pains me deep inside
but I love you all the same
You talk of other guys
and don't even know I'm there
I try to show you all my love
but you don't even care
You put me down even more
I pick myself up
I dust myself off again
but we are only friends
You'd not judge me so
if you truely cared
You'd not hurt me so
but I can't make you love me
it's not something I can control
No ring upon my finger
only pain within my heart
you tell me that you love me
only as a friend
but I love you so much more
You've hurt me so much
day after day after tomorrow
So when you wonder why
I have to act so cold
It's because you hurt me
And left me all alone
I loved you so much once
and still I love you so
But instead of growning love
your love has become shallow
So if I ever walk away
and never speak to you again
you may wonder why
it's not because I never loved you
it's because
I don't want to see
the tears falling from my eyes
but you have a hance to stop me
to claim what is already yours
You hold my heart inside your hand
This will always be my curse
you can keep it and give me all your love
Try neer to cause me pain
or give it back to me
and set me free
Then I will be gone

Obsession

2004-06-30T07:07:05Z

Is there a point to this obsession?
We all have one
I will not humor your desires
Anymore
You silly, and mindless little girl
You go rushing into oblivion
For what?
So he can tell you he has to go
Every time she calls
Yet you go chasing after him
Stalking at her door
You have to know the answer
Is he still with that whore?
A waste of time
This myth of yours
He was never yours to be stolen
And yet you have fantasies
Dreams to be with him
Three weeks into a relationship
And he’s lost to you
His obsession is his ex
And yours him
It’s not even worth it
You don’t even care for him
You just need someone, anyone
And you feel hurt and abandoned
By someone who is just your pity party
A rebound, to get over your lost love
And these things you do
You do to yourself
Stupid
How stupid are you?
You don’t see me
I’m invisible
Chasing after you
Holding your hand in times of crisis
For what
To be mocked
Laughed at
You say I am over dramatic, ha
I am your anchor to reality
You cast me overboard
At a whim
Well I am over this, and you
You lost me once
You have just lost me again
But if you never really knew
What you had
Then you have lost nothing
Love you, I will
Be with you, never
You’re a fucking psycho bitch
And I dare to call you a friend
I don’t even know you anymore
You’re the fool
I understand now why people avoid you
I used to think it was because they didn’t understand
To understand you
Is to grip onto the insane
With both hands
Like holding a dragons tale
Fairy dust, rainbows, and unicorns
Dreams you make up
A world of make believe that you live in
Well you know what you can do with that
Sit and spin

Hate love Hate

2004-06-30T07:05:52Z

open your eyes
I'm hurting inside
you can mend me
I'm broken
you can fix me
but you refuse to
you refuse to see
I'm selfish this is about me
I can't choose who I love
I cry after you like cutting up a onion
moronic really
self masticistic glee
why do I do it
why do I have this image of you
trying with all your heart chasing after a guy
giving him his wildest fantasies
wishing it was me
tainted I am
a lepper
bestfriend spit at me as an insult
dramatic you say
changing your mind I will never do
I can't open your eyes
you will never see
the love I have for you
a love I don't even understand for myself
I must love having my heart ripped out
my heart stomped upon
shouldn't beat myself up about it
your going to loose me and all
I lost myself in obsession
I can't be with anyone else
Fucking shitty life I lead
road to nowhere
there are only two ways to fix it
neither of which I prefer
I can be with you and realize my
beautiful mirror image of you is shattered
or I can be with you and get what I want
you opening your eyes
only to find out it's to late
And hating myself for believing this is not what I wanted
Who am I, anymore
No one
invisible to you
I hate what I have done to myself
loving after you
looking at you with longing
I'm weak
and fucking stupid
wish I could be strong enough to deny you
deny you or have you on my terms
but I am not
I can't cut myself off from you
or wean myself away
I can sulk
I can't be the asshole I am making myself become
mean hateful spiteful
I don't hate you
I hate myself for loving you
And yes you have lost me
because I lost myself in this stupid worthless love
Love is worthless baggage to be discarded
Just like me

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2004-06-30T07:03:04Z

When you wear jeans
so tight
I can't help but stop and stare
a sight
as beautiful as you
oh fright
I can never tell you that I care
I fear
you shall never know
or see
the feelings that I have
afraid
that if I ever tell you
all you'll do is laugh
We both have different futures
and we came from different past
all we have is friendship
how long will that friendship last
I hope it last forever
I hope our friendship grows
but what the future holds
neither of us will know
My heart will fill with sorrow
if our friendship is ever lost
when I close my eyes
I dream
one day our paths will cross